Pugilists pontificate perchance to perceive progress

Canoe

Some things we just can’t fight. Well, we can fight them, so perhaps it is best to say that with some things we just can’t win. I guess it is even harder when you don’t realize what you are fighting. It has taken me years of win-less fighting only to find out that most of that time, I was fighting myself. From Vermont to Philadelphia, then to DC and on to New Mexico, I always thought I was changing my life, changing the circumstances, and setting myself up for a brand new world. Then I’d fall into the same old habits, different people, the same personalities, and worst of all, the same me. I guess if you’re not growing, you’re dieing, and when you spend all of your time paddling your canoe up a flood, you don’t realize that you’ve been slowly killing yourself as you float downstream. You haven’t gotten to the place you wanted, because you spent all the time fighting a torrent of water. Life’s like that. When isolated from the world, out on a little boat, watching the stars or the clouds, the river can almost seem completely separate. A world independent from where we sit. I guess the river sees it differently, and here it is master. It isn't always worth it to fight the flow. Sometimes the best way to go upriver, is to get to shore and walk a different path.